I would like to go somewhere I've never been before. Do something I've never done before. I just don't know what or where. Sometimes I just want to step out of my life and experience something new and different. But it seems like every time that happens...it's never easy. The only time I ever get to experience something new or different is on a mission trip. Don't get me wrong, I am so happy to go on them. I love sharing Jesus and seeing what He does in others lives.
I just want something new and different in my life. I want to rest, feel good, experience, enjoy without any worries. Well, I can tell you now...that will only happen in heaven. It's just not meant for me to have exciting, new experiences in this life. First off, we just don't have the money. Second, I can't really take the time off of work. Nick can't either since he lost his job and had to start all over.
I have REALLY struggled this year with not having. Not getting to do what others do. All year it's been a battle. Satan sure knows how to attack me. My old crucified self knows how to attack me.
I list all the good things I have. I surely am blessed. Then I think...well...others have those same things and more. But...God. I just remind myself I need Jesus,not stuff. Jesus, remind me that also. Then I get fearful..."Well, I better not sound ungrateful or God will take away all those good things." I don't know. I'm just being silly.
A child of God- beloved, holy, righteous, blameless, healed, forgiven, brand new, sheep, salt, light, a branch, temple of God, reconciled, a saint, God's workmanship, hidden with Christ in God, an expression of the life of Christ because He is my life, a partaker, a living stone- crucified with Christ, I no longer live but Christ lives IN ME!
